All i want 2 HeaR

hectic ramblings
whirling all around
dizzying chaos
abounds

the clock continues to chime
as the seconds steadily
wind down time
expected sunrises
and predictable glowing sunsets

seasons change
fall back
spring ahead
meridians remain the same
lats and lons never change

life and death
and the time in between
how often do you do
the unpredictable things?

take a break from
your everyday
routines

sometimes it's good to hear
three simple words
to make everything
that is shattered in your world
so clear and easier to piece
back together

simpler to hear the joy in
children's laughter
allows your eyes to
capture the clarity
in the midst of the cloudy haze

from the lips of
someone so dear
all i really want
to hear
is . . .
I . . .
Love . . .
you.
sentirme, mi corazón está escuchando

copyright (c) sharbi3 2006

Leap of Faith

Drifting
between
what is right 
what may be
wrong.
Finding
Not fitting
in the niche
where one
belongs.
Listening
to voices
seldom
heard.
Wanting
to be
forewarned
instead of
misunderstood.

How does one know
which choice to make?

Which chance to forsake?

When to await
karma's fate?

Traveling roads
for destinations
unknown.
Wrong turns
made
at the fork.

Decisions,

choices,

destiny

or fate.

Human,
born to make
mistakes.
Lessons
learned,
accept
what's beyond
the gate.

Only locks
left
unturned,
bind
chains
of regret.

Ponder
a short while,
step forward.

Take a leap
of faith.

©2015 Sharbi3

writing SOMETHING cold

i wanted to write something 

 S o m E T H i N G 

 just joking, Ha! 

 listening 2 D'Angelo 
tellin' me 2 send it on
 i realize that 
i 
do 
not 
like
winter 

 or  cold 
 it's chill y frost y

        without warmth 

 of another person near 

 2 snuggle 
chill away 
 tell me spring is on it's edge 

 that's not what I wanted to write either 

 just a sentimental feeling 

 about how much 
i actually 

hate 
winter 

 i always remember my favorite poem 
by Robert Frost                     Stopping By the Woods on a Snowy Evening 

... i have miles to go before I sleep, 
              miles to go before I sleep 

alert to all that is going on around me 
 trying to decide 
where to focus this energy 
 manifesting in me 
 as the universe conspires 
 for me
 to bring me 
to a place 
it says is for me 
be around those 
that are (in)for me 
 want to be with me in spirit, guidance, learning,
 adding more roots to my tree 

 I do not like this time of year 
with consumerism, 
there is no cheer for me 
 celebrating a fake baby 
that did nothing for you 

or me 

not succumbing
 to a fallacy 
 bright and shining star is already present 

 within me 
 i am present, 
 gift  me 
      you are my gift 
 my treasure 
here on earth 

 but i am not seen 
 beneath the dark, cold sky 

 twinkling 
in my eyes 
 hidden by shadows 
  moonlight has yet to capture 
out side crisp night air, 
(in)side a heated space
i will lay my head down 
 dream of sandy beaches 
far away 
 where  warm waves 
of ocean caress my feet 

 i will dream away these winter blues 
believing in warmth 

 summer's radiant hues 
 i'll put on my fuzzy socks 

creating friction
remove chill from my feet 
as i cocoon myself in cotton blankets 

 did i remember to write something?

  S O M E T H I n G 

 i 
do 

not 
like 

 winter 

 it's too cold 

my thoughts are frozen 

(c) 2014 Sharbi3

Father's Day 2014

My youth were raised in a single parent household ...

I am a woman, a mother, the nurturer, the gentle touch, the soft spoken voice of reason. Sure, I've been the disciplinarian, the breadwinner, the household repair person, the lawn care provider and many other roles that may have at one time been gender assigned. But one thing I am not, is a man. I will never be a father. I didn't teach my sons to stand up and pee, I couldn't possibly understand what it's like to be a he. I haven't taught them how to shave and I learned to tie a tie by practice. I will not ever be as strong as a man nor will I pretend that I can. Sure, I may wear pants, but with a feminine stance. I am only one half, the X, he provides the Y and determines the sex. It takes us two to create a youth and when the one day comes around a year, I'm going to give him his just due. I'll not take this time to steal his shine. I'll not add a tag to pin to his coat. I'll not take away his masculine energy. I will promote him and acknowledge those men that do. They fill the role that their supposed to. He cares for his seed and teaches them the way.  I give him all his props this and every other Father's Day!!!

Wishing all the fathers and father figures out there taking care of, providing proper guidance to and raising their youth (or taking on the responsibility for another man) a Very Happy Father's Day. Bless⬆

To the Edge

I went to the edge
At the shoreline
Where the ebbing tide
Met the dry earth
Crouching down
Then leaning forward
I peered over the edge
Careful not to get wet
I teetered on the edge
With just enough lean
I saw it
My reflection
Water mirroring me
My face
On the edge
There I slightly glanced
toward the horizon
I was peering at the edge
Seemingly endless the expanse of water
I could see forever
Then I looked back
And caught my eyes looking at me
In them
I saw forever at the edge
Straightening just enough
To not fall backward
I placed my elbows on my knees
And balanced
There on the edge
I raised my head and balanced
My eyes on the horizon
Like the bubble does on a leveler
Leveling my balance
I didn't waiver
I didn't teeter
Neither forward
So as not to get wet
Nor backward
So as not to fall
I was there on the edge
Of the horizon
The edge of the water
The place where the earth met
The edge of forever
And there
I was balanced

©2013 Sharbi3

Got Damn Today Pt 2

“Got Damn Today!” Pt. 2

I dun fucked up
Yep, I did it again
so I'm sitting here
contemplating a win
Not wanting to fail again and again
I keep trying, bootstraps applying
pouring out my heart and soul
Failure seems an endless end
how many times do I keep trying
how many headaches do I have to experience
How many missed chances, I guess I’m delirious
can't think straight, don't know nothin
all this over compensating ain't gettin me no where
at least not to where I wanna go
I guess I’m impatient cuz things are moving too slow
I want to win I want to succeed
but is it all my blood that I must bleed
in order to become successful and feel the blessings
yeah I guess I’m envious
of all the people that make it and can smile on the daily
damn it can't you feel my pain
I’m reaching out here, I’m going insane
life has got me today
I can't deny that, this feeling in my gut
is telling me that
but I know we all go through days of ups and downs
today I’m feeling the down, and right now it's not escaping me
I’m getting numb
not wanting to feel no more
this life is a struggle, you never know one day to the next
so all I can do is flex my mental muscle
and try to figure out the next hustle
we all go through thangs that make us holler
and it's guaranteed that the sun still gon shine tomorrow!
© sharbi3 2006
© sharbi3 2013

“a Conversation”

“a Conversation”

hello my friend, it's been awhile

since i've seen your smile

how long has it been

i can tell you're happy to see me

in the way that you greet me

so what have you been up to

did you get that job you were after

or did you travel the world far and wide

oh, you have a family now

what two girls and a boy

wow, i'm sure they are a handful

what grades are they in school

that's really cool, i'm happy for you

oh me, i'm doing well can't you tell

i've been lost in the city

where's there's plenty

of things to keep me busy

and i've visited the Far East

where i learned about war and peace

there is a serenity there that allowed

me to clear my thoughts

and get over promises lost

and dreams i left behind

yeah i thought about you often

wondering what could have happened

but like i said, i'm fine now

children, no not yet, the timing isn't right

i know i was planning on it then

but things have changed and i've grown

see things a bit differently

i have other seeds to sow

i've been helping out in my community

and attending important functions

at this juncture

in my life

i'm going to hold off on rash decisions

so where are you headed off to

a funeral for your late wife

i'm so sorry to hear that

how are you holding up

she was sick, been fighting it for awhile

you were just waiting for her to finally be at rest

that's a lot for me to digest

well here's my number

call me whenever

you are up to facing the world again

yeah i know i've always been there for you

and i'll still be there

i'm always near

but so much time has passed

i'm not sure how long my compassion will last

cause remember, you were the broke down

son of a bitch that left my ass!

© sharbi3 2006